MuSiC oF mY LiFe

~~Tuesday, March 04, 2008~~

its always during horrendous tests period then blogger becomes my regular frustrating tank.

skipped maths tut as usual - but this time round, is to study maths. haha. I've got to catch up cos no use gg to tut. 望尘莫及. thur's midterm exam till chap 7, tutorial is at chap 8 i think, and i've only started chap 1. so, today's the day to chiong man. at least read thru my notes. maths is thereotically never hard to me, just need to practice. however, i didn't dedicate time for it, so now it smacked me hard. haha. FYI, i became a loser by S/U-ing my maths this time round, meaning tt i've changed it to a pass/fail subject. 1 yr can only use this option once on 1 sub, and i used it on such a sub tt can be salvaged. lol. with all e events this mth, i have less much of a choice lar...or is tt an escape route?

bia thru the notes, went for lessons, and back. printer was outta ink and so went to JP to get ink + dinner. Reached back hostel later and finally got down to abit more of maths. persisted to read thru it at least so i can pract abit on wed nite be4 thur's paper. hai. BUT BUT BUT...i've got a physics paper on WED. congrats congrats to me. I haven started on physics. hah...But i got a habit to start the lastest sub 1st and study the nearest sub last. Lol. Stubborn, but who cares?

8 chaps of physics. 3am in the morn. can i have the energy to read thru like 4 chaps of it at least? 3 chaps? 2 chaps? i wonder... usually when put in such scenario, years of experience just tells me i only got me alone to save myself. becos why? the world will not stop spinning for me. haha. No matter how prepared or unprepared i m, the papers are set and gonna be beautifully placed on the exam desks waiting for us. haha..diligence helps for survival here man. lessons learnt, but nv prevented, time after time. half-life.

more bravo thing is that, i've got proj meeting tml in the noon. and guitar pract from directly after school till late everyday till thur. and i cannot dun go, cos of many reasons. expectations, conductor, and alot more reasons. i m split in pieces but its just the way it is...

i hope i can pull thru. i noe no matter wad, the days will pass, the events will come. bless myself man! need to be the most optimistic pessimist. tons of coffee and red bull pls. haha. ok, back to study. laters.

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